“Not Now, Not Ever”

By A.M. Glass

Copyright: August 26th, 2000

Rating:‘R’

Disclaimer: Joss Whedon, Fox Studios, Mutant Enemy, et al, have something to do with “Buffy The Vampire Slayer”. No copyright infringement is intended or inferred. The story is the sole property of the author.

Song: “No Mercy” by Dennis Morgan, Todd Cernery and Stephen Allen Davis. The song is sung by Ty Herndon.

Author’s Note: I must admit, that having an ‘R’ rating on a song fic is pretty daring for me, but, I felt that I couldn’t really use ‘PG-13’ and feel good about it. It’s not graphic, but, I might say suggestive. Oh, one last thing, to that person out there, and we both know who you are, smile it’s okay to read... maybe.

Angst Warning: Why yes, there is some angst, and if I tell you any more, it’ll ruin the story.

Feedback: I could beg and plead, get down on my knees, but... you’d never know if I was actually doing it now would you. It would help... it would be nice... please!! Okay, I’m done beggin’.


Don’t think I’m sorry is
what we needed to say

‘Oh, we need to say that and so much more,’ Willow told herself as she listened to the song playing in the background.

Don’t think forgiveness
is why we’re here today

‘Is it too late?’ Tara thought as she sat across from Willow, wondering if coming back had been a good idea. They had decided to meet in a neutral location, and the hotel seemed like the best place to talk.

Guilty...

We’re both guilty...

Let’s walk through that door

‘I shouldn’t have jumped to conclusions,’ Willow said silently, looking down at her hand, as her fingers played with the ring Tara had placed there years ago.

A second chance is what
I’m talking about.

Let’s take the hurt...

And turn it inside out.

Lay it on me baby...

‘til I can’t take any more

Tara stood up and walked the short distance that separated them, and took Willow’s hand in hers. Willow swallowed before looking up. They hadn’t said a single thing to each other since entering the room. She was sure that she didn’t have a chance, that far too many things had happened.

No mercy...

Show me no mercy.

Love me all night long...

And don’t hurry

Tara pulled Willow up and knew she could be without her any longer.

Take it slow and easy...

No mercy tonight

Willow slowly allowed her arms to surround Tara’s body she had to be sure. There had to be an opportunity for Tara to back away if that’s what she wanted. She released the breath she didn’t know she had been holding, as Tara’s arms wrapped themselves around her.

Hold me, baby...

You know...

I’ve been hurtin’

‘Oh Goddess,’ Tara thought as she held on to Willow.

Love this love back to life...

‘cause it’s worth it

“I’ve missed you,” Willow finally said, as she inhaled the scent that was purely Tara, and realized much it meant not having Tara around her.

Love me strong, baby...

And show me no mercy tonight

“I’ve missed you too,” Tara replied, pulling back so that she could look into Willow’s face once more.

Remember...

When we thought
that bein’ apart

Would be the best thing

For both our hearts

“Never again,” Willow said, voicing what she knew was in her heart.

“Never again,” Tara repeated.

It’s a prison out there
when you’re livin’ alone,
for sure

Now I know how much
I really missed you

Willow closed the gap between them and lightly kissed Tara’s lips.

No more games...

Just wanna be with you

Tara lost herself in the sensations of the kiss, as her hands slowly traveled up, caressing Willow’s back, as the kiss intensified.

Just give me all your love...

‘til you can’t give anymore

They broke apart gasping for air, their lips tingling for the kiss they shared. Willow saw a burning desire in Tara’s eyes and felt herself being drawn to her.

No mercy...

Show me no mercy.

Love me all night long...

And don’t hurry

Take it slow and easy...

No mercy tonight

Tara began to remove her blouse, when Willow reached out and stopped her.

“Let me... please,” she asked.

Tara nodded.

Hold me, baby...

You know I’ve been hurtin’

Love this love back to life...

‘cause it’s worth it

Tara stood motionless as Willow undressed her.

Love me strong, baby...

And show me...

No mercy tonight

With each layer of clothing that was removed, Tara felt her pulse quicken.

And she knew...

There could never be anyone else for her...

Not now...

Not ever.

Willow silently adored the woman she undressed. Leaning forward she kissed bare flesh, smiling inwardly as Tara’s body reacted to her simple touch.

In the silence of the early hours

I look at you...

And I feel the power

Tara needed to feel Willow against her, and where Willow had been slow and methodical, to the point of torture, she rushed. Clothes landing wherever they happened to fall.

You don’t need promises
to make it right

Let’s just follow
what we’re feelin’ inside

They held onto each other briefly, before allowing their emotions, their desires, needs, dictate what had to be done.

No mercy...

Show me no mercy.

Love me all night long...

And don’t hurry

Take it slow and easy...

No mercy tonight

Bodies moved against each other, hands caressed, touched and teased. Mouths sought out their counterparts, reaffirming their connection. Backs arched as waves of desire pounded through their veins.

Hold me baby...

You know I’ve been hurtin’

Love this love back to life...

‘cause it’s worth it

Love me strong baby...

And...

Show me no mercy tonight

Finally hearts rejoined and slowly returned to normal.

“ I love you.”

Love this love back to life...

‘cause it’s worth it

“I love you too.”

Love me strong, baby...

Show me no mercy tonight

The End.